Right now the "grown up" responsibilities are really hard to keep up with. Aaron builds houses for a company on the coast. They are working on their last house and have none lined up. Apparently, this is Aaron's last week until something comes along. I am lucky to still have a job, what with budget cuts and all; however, leaving to have the baby and taking that income hit has not made things easy. Actually, they never were easy to begin with. And yes, I know things are this way all over. To be honest, I'm not complaining, really.
I realize my situation is not nearly half as bad as some others. I'm thankful to be able to "survive" the way we have in the past couple of years since I got out of college. This time is different though. It's different because we have Blazer.
Whenever things got this bad before, it was all Aaron and I could do not to dwell on our situation. Looking on the bright side of things is more difficult when we live in the grayest part of the earth. (No, I am not exaggerating.) Now, when it's worse than ever before (we will be o.k.), Aaron and I just look at Blazer and the "grown up" stuff, while still very important, just seems so small and insignificant. He smiles so big and is full of so much love and light. It's hard to be unhappy since he joined our lives. Aaron said the other day, "I know things are bad, but I've never been happier." I wanted to cry...because he is right. I might get stressed about bills and freak out about the small stuff sometimes but in the end, we are still blessed with Blazer.
It wouldn't be okay right now, if it were not for Blazer.
We wouldn't be smiling right now, if it were not for Blazer.
Things would be grayer right now, if it were not for Blazer.
And, even though Aaron and I have always had each other, it's even better now that we have Blazer.
No, he is not just another mouth to feed.
No, he is not just another doctor bill.
No, he is not a nuisance amidst our free time.
He is our SON.
He is our LOVE.
He is EVERYTHING.
He is our Blazer.
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